Goodbye 2012 ... Hello 2013

Hope you are enjoying the final day of 2012; or the fresh start of a brand new 2013.

As the final hours of the year approach quickly I can’t help but ponder on all the things that have occurred in the last year. So much can change in a minute let alone “five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes.” But 2012 was a leap year and we had 527,040 minutes to enjoy life, learn lessons, have fun and get some sleep. I enjoy the last one a lot but this year I didn’t get as much of it as other years. My commitment to living life everyday as if it were the last was renewed during my breathless stay in the hospital this past February. It’s usually takes these drastic moments that force us to wake up and realize how insignificant the little things are truly.

There was motivation to get out of there and make changes in my life. I started the hard battle to quit smoking for good this time and loose weight. But have been a challenging struggle but I’ve made great strides with both. Some things seem not to be too toxic in small doses but they build up in your system and eventually prove to be extremely harmful long term. I found this to be true of a few relationships and decide it was time to quit them for good.

The week spent there made me evaluate all aspects of my life, the people that surrounded me, the kinds of people that I wanted to continue to surround myself with, and who proved to be real friends. It was that week I realized that some things are hard to quit and let go but we must learn to let them go. When I signed the release papers and walked out of the hospital I had left behind & quit a few toxic elements of past 13 years, which I’ll never want to bring back into my life. I’m thankful for learning this and having the strength to let go.

But this year also brought many great things with it as well. I’ve meet a few great people, some who will always remain in my life and others who albeit only crossed paths with me will forever hold a spot dear to my heart because they made an impression. For these people I’m thankful because they resurrected different parts of my being that I had allowed to die inside of me. No mater how short their cameo appearance they will not be forgotten.

I’ll have much more for you all next year but until then many great things for a Happy New Year to all!! The sun has now set on this day of mine and it’s time for me to get ready to greet 2013 with open arms. Welcoming all the new experiences and people that will come with it. 

Which BigBearMIA is sexier the Bear or the Chub?

Ahh… the New Year is finally here. It seems to always make all of us want a new start or to commit to some New Year’s Resolution even if it’s for a few weeks, days or in some cases hours. Stop smoking, save money, and the ever popular lose weight. The later is the one which has been intriguing me for a few weeks now. About 8 years ago, I was the thinnest I had been since the age of eight. I was always a big boy and when I hit puberty at about 10 years old I quickly became a BigBear without even knowing it.

Fast forward through a decade & a half of yo-yoing my weight and I finally found the formula that worked right for me. I kept the weight off for about 3 years and actually continued to lose more albeit at a much slower pace. I was very proud of my weight lose. BUT in no way was I happy with my new body. It was turning into a flabby hanging of skin which I couldn’t fix no matter how much I hit the gym. My physician finally told me that the only way to take care of it was by the expensive Excess Skin Removal Surgery done after extreme weight loss. Soon I was so depressed and disappointed with all my efforts going to waste that I began to take less care of myself. Eventually I gained it all back and once again was not happy with myself.

This year I’ve been struggling with the idea of going for it again. Working on losing the weight but since being exposed more to the Chub community in the last few years I’ve been discouraged to do so by a few people. I’m not happy with my current weight and know I have to lose some of it for myself. But I question whether I should go back to my thin weight, even if it means having the excess skin which makes me so unhappy? Should I do it just for the sake of doing it?

Well I want to know what you guys think about his. To help me quantify this I’ve opened the first monthly poll to get your feedback on this topic. At the moment it will be up for a month which may be changed to a quarterly poll depending on the traffic I get on here. When you are this close to the subject it is hard to make an un-bias opinion.

Please vote on the poll and leave as many comments regarding this topic as you like.

UPDATE 2011: I decided to remove this poll from the side menu because it was not really being productive for me any longer. After quite some time up the votes were split even 50/50. Just for reference below are the two images that I had posted. Thanks to everyone that voted.

BEAR BigBearMIA



CHUB BigBearMIA