Bear or Chub… in the City?

This BLOG pretty much started because of a few debates. Am I a BEAR or a CHUB? Which is a better look for me? Could I really be happy as a Chub? If I have such a great face and smile why am I not attracting my type of guys?!?!?! Okay, so maybe the last one hasn’t been a topic yet. I haven’t really been emotionally slutty in my BLOGs and delved into the realm of my love life mostly because I’ve been really content with the status quo. Basically being single and enjoying all that it entails. Often it’s nothing more than some sporadic good sex, hanging with THE BOYS and working my ass off. You know what it’s like; you’ve seen a few episodes of Sex and the City (affectionately referred to as “SatC” from here on out). Except think gay guys, less fashion labels and more hair in all the hot places. OK! OKaaay! So the sex is not always good and at times there are more labels present than in the collective wardrobe of all six seasons of “SatC.” But the rest is accurate-- for the most part.

As a GEMINI if there was a “SatC” character I was most like I’d have to say --it’s ALL of them. There is a little Charlotte (prudent & naïve) but with lots of Samantha (the sex drive & open sexual aggressiveness) mixed in with a sprinkling of Carrie (hence the BLOG & all the writing) and Miranda (career oriented & little guy lover). Oh MAN!… STEVE (David Eigenberg) is HOT in this show. It’s quite funny that I was never much into the show until close to the end. Okay until I saw David Eigenberg on the show; but when Mikhail Baryshnikov & Carrier started to date-- I was HOOKED! Mikhail is the hottest little guy ever. After all these years I still have the HOTS for his 5’7” (WOOOOOF!!!!) ass. He may have just turned 60 this year on January 28 but that body, face and the whole package are in my book still FCUKEN HOT!! Deep breathe… calm down. I get worked up every time I think of a hot little guy like him. First saw him in a picture with Nancy Reagan in the paper and that was it. I was CRUSHED.

Where was I going with this? Hot little guys? Mmmmmm…. OKAY FOCUS! I’m not attracting them. I’m not sure what it is that I’m doing wrong. I’ve found a few and chatted but they are all across the pond. Europe seems to have a lot of the guys I like. But there are few guys here in the U.S., even less in the South Florida area, who react to my profile. Maybe I’m not really being clear what I like. Maybe I’m being much too open in my profile or not enough? I’m I targeting the wrong audience? Since I’ve never been into labels, am I not labeling myself accurately?? SOMEONE PLEASE LET ME KNOW WHAT I’M DOING WRONG!!! A quick survey of all these found that I’m looking for guys in the Bear/Chub communities; Bear chasers on Bear411 and Chubby chasers on BiggerCity. Well, that’s a good start since according to BiggerCity’s definitions a CHUB is a big guy who likes smaller guys and a BEAR is a husky or big guy who is definitely hairy. I’m definitely BOTH. So what is it?!?!?!

I’ve been working on losing the excess CHUB and getting myself back to the HUSKY BEAR size. The lack of confidence is likely the only factor that’s been keeping guys away. Seems I’ve lost my mojo and it’s time I recapture it again. I guess the first thing to do is give myself the MOJO jump start or giving myself a makeover. Emotionally for sure I need it but maybe even physically I can use one. It could be fun to try out different looks and along the way I’ll be trying out new vibes. I’ll make sure to take pictures of each to record the long journey. And since I think I’m going to take the paths I’ve never ventured in the past; if you seem along the way say “Hi!”